Name: Dr. Objective, Mr. Subjective Home: Bronx, New York, United States About Me: I am one of the most humorously random people you will meet. Anything else you want to know, please don't hesitate to ask. See my complete profile
Wat up blogging dudes. I decided to write today becuz I felt myself regressing and everyone is doing something and I literally had no1 to speak to. I was talkin' to my friend Nicole for a lil' bit, but she must've got OD busy or something must've happened becuz she ain't text me bac...and I texted my friend Tania, but she ain't respond. She'll probably randomly text or call me tomorrow. I guess I should update about that crush of mine: nothing happened last Wednesday. I invited her to hang out with me, my brother Dylan and my friend Meredith after class since it was the last class, but she had something occupying her time already. I was really planning to open up to her about how i felt about her, but...i guess i gotta b a lil more patient...or a lil more persistent...idk. I really like her and I hope I get to tell her while I still have a open opportunity..Anyway, today was stagnant. Like I mentioned before, it was one of those days dat it seemed like everyone had something to do...except me. Itz a little depressing and itz days like this where I catch myself regressing to the worse side of me: missing my ex and all my old "friends" and the days where I always had something to do or someone to hang with...I was fighting myself all day to check my X's myspace. Luckily, I'm smart enough not to even put myself through that again. That's one of the main reason why I like occupying my time wisely...my mind keeps off her...den I don't have to reminisce or start listening to those slow jams that kick u down in the dumps about break-ups and stuff...I noticed that lately, she's been on AIM alot..itz the 1st time I've seen her online consistently since the summer time..Idk...I can insinuate that she actually misses me and is waiting for that day she can see me online, but I doubt it..Her girlz prolli giving her all that she needs (yeah...datz right...i said "girl" not "man"...=-O). Well, as depressed as I sound, I know I'm worth better and I know I'll find someone that'll appreciate me the way she never did...and knowing that keeps the depressing times to a limit. Days like this become introspective and reflective, where I just analyze where I'm at: if i'm becoming a better person, if i'm healing from periods that hurt me alot, if i'm destined to become something relevant in this life where people just settle for the minimal, etc. etc. etc. Thank goodness for blogs lol. Might as well throw in some positive sounding news since all that seemed a little pessimistic. Me and Nicole are getting cooler and cooler everyday. We talk alot and I really like her as a person becuz shez REAL honest. Like, one of the few girls that I'm cool with that I can be real blatantly blunt with and I don't feel stupid or insecure. I admitted to her that it scares me how open we are to each other becuz itz practically identical to how me and my X started out, but she reassured me that shez different and we're taking it one step at a time and not rushing into anything (LIKE YOU'RE SUPPOSE TO) to avoid any heartbreaks..but we really like each other...well lol, I really like her. Shez a little bashful and doesn't like to admit she likes me, but I can read her like a open book at times. I'm curious to see where it goes...Anyway, I'll leave it at that. I love writing in my blogs. They really help me when I'm not feeling too great :-D. Anway, until next time..
**P.S. Go Get Joe Budden's Mood Muzik 3: For Better or Worse. Some good music to vibe to, especially his heartfelt tracks. The track that's playing is my favorite song from the mixtape: "All of Me (Feat. Emanny).
